If you literally can’t conform to social norms and expectations, you luck out of them. You might deal with them as external obstacles. But you never ingest the poison. Meanwhile, everyone else develops an addiction. To beauty. To intellect. Or to ego.
That’s profound AF.
I def parlayed the onslaught of attention at 15, going from one end of the beauty spectrum to the other, into a power dynamic that worked for me when I had no other.
But I didn’t internalize it. It was a convenient tool, not an identity.
This could be why.